It's in our nature and is a simple matter of course even in the most broken and branded of us there are its traces and its echoes and I am no exception. Sometimes I resent this - for having so much forced upon me from so young an age and for forever receiving so little when I so often seek only to give, I have these gut-checking moments when I rail against both the nature and nurture of my situation. I know what I am and where I stand all while trying to maintain an open and hopeful stance despite what I know and feel. No matter how unique my situation may be the conflict at the heart of it most certainly is not - this has happened to others before and it will happen again and recognizing such a simple truth gives me some place to stand, some place to stand. Being grounded doesn't mean that I cannot dream, though, and I suppose that that is part of my problem and so there I am, again, full circle.
Oh well, who needs happiness anyway ;D
Dream with me awhile, it'll have to do.